Hello again! It’s been a while… Is it ironic, or coincidental, or poetic that the first time I want to broach the subject of mental health, it’s May – Mental Health Awareness Month? I hear you, Jesus.
I didn’t intend to step away from my blog for so long, but this year of homeschooling (#newbie) really threw me for a loop. I kept hearing that one of the major perks is the flexibility, and while it is, they still don’t go into how much of a time-suck it can be planning lessons for three kids in three separate grades, let alone teaching them! Anyways, the finish line is around the corner.
That aside, our family was thrown a few curve balls in March and we had to take some steps back and shift our focus on comforting, healing, and praying. I type that as if were easy to do but it is still something we are working on day by day.
I’m the kind of type-A personality who makes lists, likes things super organized, and will get. things. done. So typically, I would’ve been all over the appointment-making, email-returning, researching, option-discussing, etc. Instead, I wanted to curl up in a ball, cry, watch TV, sleep, ignore it, or something equally less “effective”. While I told myself “I just need a mental break!,” I also felt very guilty for doing so, because I was a parent who needed to rally.
Being the mama of the house, I tend to take on a lot of the kiddos’ emotions. It’s our maternal nature to sit with them in their sorrow and suffering, their anger and frustration, and in their joy and pride. When the negative outweighs the positive on a too-frequent basis, your body will start to feel the toll.
Last week, I suffered my first panic attack. Apparently, adrenal glands like to store up that pent up adrenaline and release it at random times. Who knew? (Not this gal. Thankfully the EMT in the ambulance who I called in the parking lot did). But, that was my body’s physical way of saying, “Enough is enough.”
So now, thanks to the overwhelming support of my loving family members (some of whom are in the right fields), motivating girlfriends, an encouraging primary care physician with a prescription, a new therapist, and a special novena to Our Lady Undoer of Knots, I am learning to listen to my body. I am also walking and hiking waaaay more than I ever wanted to (which means like four times this past week).
Btw, May is also the month of Mary, so it’s an excellent time to pray to our mother for a little extra help. 😊
Keep going, beloved.
We got this.
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” – Philippians 4:6-7